Times apart not miles
our eyes aligned
hearts apart
my will apart
this world isn’t mine
so aren’t you
the mind is mine
the cries are too
the crier not
the song was ours
the dance is mine
the rain was always you
the tears are mine
the stars were you
the moonless sky, I
solace is you
i am the fire
solace, too
the waves are you
and all in the world
that moves
for I don’t
move anymore
Hello to the night
today I confess
today I confess
that my own mind
wants to kill my self
it’s a fest of the demons
the angels’ long gone
struggle for sunlight
drowning in waters dark
the bad dreams don’t stop
my mind doesn’t even
call it a nightmare
because it has become
my day
breathe heavy I
to let it all out
I see through these eyes
but do I really anymore?
for it isn’t the island that lies ahead
but the sea that cannot be crossed
don’t try to fix it
do not
for I have given in
to be at the sea
to be taken away
pulled down
I have given in.
To hold you
By the throat
To fuck
You or
You over
To throw
You around
To show pride
To show around
To people
You are mine
Your problems
Your cries
How can you say
You still love me
When those who
Were mine didn’t
How can you stay
In this bloody cage
How can you still utter
Words of love
Out of your choked throat
My property
It isn’t my fault
The words that don’t come out anymore
Or the scratches on your back
It isn’t my fault
They made me
With thorns for hands.
black grass
burning skies
thorns on the ground
no I don’t bleed no more
cut down everything
I bit in my fears long ago
I ate my self long ago
rules of the wild
I tread without a footprint
they say they still dream
cherry blossom
invisible to the mirrors in the way
faces hung on sticks
I know you
or I used to
you look at me the same
lifelessly
I have forgotten what
I was seeking
you left for
merrier lands
but I never was one
for merrier things
and you, you
taught me to leave
you taught me hate
you taught me unhappiness
you taught me satisfaction
I moved all stones
the meadows are here
merry
I turn back
did you not realise
you made me for bloodshed?
I walked on 
I hate you
I hate you today
but then I hate
everyday
what I loved once gone away
it was a lovely sandcastle
but I hate it
all the nights by the water
sip cheap coffee
suicidal
maybe
happy
but today
I hate it
the striking of strings
the sounds you make
lay your back against me
soothe
chill music
I hate it
the embrace
flight
high
blood
orgasm
80 bpm
I hate it
the sandcastle was mine but
the drugs too
the cheap thoughts of you
mine, too
I hate you today
I hate me today
but then I hate me
everyday.
Blue Brief 